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a really cool coffee house type concert...

So almost 3 weeks later I'm still thinking about the show at Pinkerton.

Stockbridge Theatre - 4/18/2012

Andy encouraged me to go because Anthony Rapp and Adam Pascal were performing, and I love Rent...but it seemed a bit weird to go to see a couple of cast members from rent, but I went with it. We didn't have childcare so he stayed home and I was tenative about going by myself...but I did. Students were $10 and non-students were $25. I went up to the ticket booth and presented my credit card..."you're a student right?" uh. no. BUT ZOMG thank you. I graduated 11 years ago.

It was a prety small group of people, probably about a hundred or so, mainly students and a few townsfolk. Adam Pascal came out, and he was exactly what you'd expect a showman to be. He did a great job highlighting some of the showtunes he was in - I very much liked his rendition of 'Joanna' from Sweeney Todd. But I didn't completely love the ways he was arranging things or the screeching.

Anthony Rapp came out and although I liked him dearly in the movie and enjoy his Dazed and Confused performance I had no idea my mind was about to be blown. He had 2 awesome original songs he sang. He also did a few covers - Creep by Radio Head stood out. He explained that "Losing my Religion"was his audition song for Rent and how that has changed his life. I think I like his slight alterations just a bit more than REM. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pEg_h9D7yFc

He explained how he was in Hedwig and the Angry Inch and sang "Origins of Love" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvp8ZuUEAlY I would have loved to see him play Hedwig, he just has such an amazing wit and personality that Rent never really capitalized on. Mark is a good character but it doesn't show his spectrum of talent at all. He sang a few more covers, and told the story of his mother, who was dying of cancer when he was in Rent, and how he flew back and forth to see her in between shows, which is where his book Without You came from http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xrAwdLfk70.He then sang "Without You" and I cried. I haven't been on such a personal roller coaster at a show. I know that Rent strongly resonates with me, getting to know the backstory of one incredible actor involved with it from the beginning was a pleasure. More covers, Adam Pascal came out, they sang some Rent songs - it was a good duet.

I waited 20 minutes to meet them after the show. The teenagers ahead of me were EACH taking their picture with the duo, even if they were in a group of 5+, they wanted an individual photo. I could see that these guys were tired but appreciative so I didn't want to take up too much of their time. "Hey guys!" I said as I walked up for my turn, "You look familiar...." Anthony Rapp said to me, and Adam Pascal agreed. The correct answer should have been, "Got a light?" but I wasn't on my toes. Anyway, they thought they had seen me before, and I honestly think it was just because I was a positive person that wasn't only a fangirl. I brought out the Dazed and Confused poster that came with Andy's Criterion and placed it in front of Anthony. He expressed that the poster we had was supposed to be the original cover for the film, but the studio pulled it. He seemed happy to have the blast from the past, and Adam Pascal started getting his marker ready to sign it...."I'm sorry Adam, but you weren't in Dazed and Confused, you can sign my Rent Blu-Ray though." He looked surprised, but there was no way I was going to let that mistake happen. I expressed my gratitude for them coming to our small NH town and came home beaming. I couldn't stop telling Andy every detail - most of which I have forgotten, but I do remember the way that show made me feel. Like I had a chance to live. Really live. And I never take any day for granted, but it really resonated with me after hearing Anthony speak. Sometimes you just need a reminder I guess. It's too bad there aren't itunes versions of these songs so I could get better quality than the youtube video someone obviously took with their cameraphone, but c'est la vie. I hope you enjoyed these clips as much as I enjoyed sharing them.

So glad I don't have drama.


Happy fucking new year!!!

1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before? 30 mile walkathon for MS, raised $1600 for it.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for this year?
last years: Stopped being a doormat. Will continue on.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? not immediately. I lost a friend over an ugly baby.

4. Did anyone close to you die? my grandmother in March

5. What countries did you visit? USA!

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010? consistent happiness with my partner

7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
9/10/10-9/11/10 - 30 miles with MS walk
12/8 - first date with Andy

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? 30 mile walkathon, Atlantic City, falling in love

9. What was your biggest failure? None

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? just regular spastisity that I get. And tendinitis after roller skating

11. What was the best thing you bought? Concert Tickets to Green Day, new camera, awesome plasma tv and surround sound

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Jenny, Shawna, Misty, Alan, Alexis, Tara, Andy - everyone was incredibly awesome and there for me.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? People that can't take a joke :-)

14. Where did most of your money go? Video games

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Bruins games, Hometown Throwdown, getting to know Andy

16. What song will always remind you of 2009? Hey Soul Sister by Train

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier
ii. thinner or fatter? About the same
iii. richer or poorer? Richer, with friends and property!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Nada

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? wasting time on someone who didn't love me.

20. How did you spend Christmas? went up to see Misty! Saw the Tourist

Where's 21?

22. Did you fall in love in 2010? I am.

23. How many one-night stands? None

24. What was your favorite TV program? House, Big Bang Theory, The Office, Dexter

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Nope.

26. What was the best book you read? Women's Anatomy of Arousal by Sheri Winston

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? I can like hip hop! Taio Cruz, Black Eyed Peas and Usher

28. What did you want and get? someone to care.

29. What did you want and not get? a more regular work schedule that doesn't stress me out

30. What was your favorite film of this year? Despicable Me. Hands down!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 28 - realized Bugaboo creek was closed *sad face* and went to La caretta instead

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? finding Andy sooner

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010? About the same, not terribly fashionable. But I learned makeups and hair!

34. What kept you sane? My friends. Music.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Robert Downey Jr., Ryan Reynolds - still

36. What political issue stirred you the most? Gay marriage, Planned Parenthood rights

37. Who did you miss? anyone I don't get to see often

38. Who was the best new person you met? Erin Jenkins. I remet Andy which has been incredible

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010. lube is good for long walks

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night" - Black Eyed Peas

I said "I think I love you" back...

So Andy broke up with this girl over the summer, and they were still being nice and hanging out. She got a little nuts and then he told her that he can't be friends because she's not a good friend or whatever. She got all mad, and eventually was saying things about me to get him riled up (who she has never met)

His reply?

"I have a girlfriend named Jen, she's very nice and she sells sex toys and we're going to have a lot of fun!" *click*

Right then I knew he's a keeper.


so seriously. i need this new job to pull through. im so stressed at work because every month they change the expectations in a way that decreases my pay. it statted with going from 40 hrs with occasional overtime to 40 hours, then to 36.5 hours no more. then individual vs team bonus. team bonus 130% of goal would net you an addl $5/hr for hours worked roughly 740 before taxes. individual goal 130% is roughly 600 before taxes. last month our goal was 38 units, this month 45, next month is 57! but the payout decreases in correspondence. so. im working harder for less money and more stress. i love the american dream. so fingers crossed i hear back today about the other job
* Jun. 3rd, 2010 at 2:12 AM
I'm so happy and grateful that...
+I'm enough for me
+I'm enough for my partner
+I have mindblowing orgasms that leave me limp
+My partner makes me laugh and doesn't make me cry
+My partner is independent
+My partner accepts me for exactly who I am and nothing less
+My partner listens but also shares as well so that I don't ever do ALL the talking
+My partner is spontaneous and creative
+My partner is supportive
+My partner (is not addicted to drugs or alcohol) drinks in moderation or not at all, does not do drugs
+My partner enjoys hockey
+My partner is sexy
+My partner has a job and a car
+My partner is kind, polite and gentle
+My partner is respectful of me, my body and my belongings
+My partner is willing to spend time with me and make time for us
+My partner is willing to give as well as take
+My partner knows healthy ways to express themselves
+My partner has really interesting friends that I enjoy spending time with
+My partner is free of stds

Vikki encouraged me to make a list. Turns out it worked for her. Tell the universe you want, be specific and it will provide. Her's took her 6 months to provide the person of her dreams. I was specific before, but apparently not specific enough. I have revised this list universe - I'm ready.


6 names you go by: (this is not easy!)
1. Jen
2. Jenbeast
3. Jenny
4. Goddess
5. Jennifer Beaudoin
6. Jennifer Lyn Beaudoin

3 things you are wearing right now:
1. Jeans
2. lime green Cami
3. pink blouse

2 Things you want very badly at the moment:
1. to not be angry
2. to be paid what I deserve

3 people who will fill this out:
2. Jenny did already
3. I don't know anyone else who reads my page

2 things you did last night:
1. worked
2. made an atm deposit

2 things you ate today
1. banana cream pie
2. mac & cheese pizza

2 people you last talked to on the phone:
1. Shawna
2. Mom

2 things you are going to do tomorrow:
1. Work
2. Celebrate after work

3 favorite drinks:
1. Water
2. Coffee milkshakes
3. Pepsi

Sep. 28th, 2010

Also my fluffy cat has been mega snuggly and also having hairballs every day since the breakup. He's doing his part somehow.

YAY music!

So, I'm adding music to my MP3 Player.

I know I'm missing a lot of important tunes, these are important ones that are already on there:
The Killers: Hot Fuss
Weezer: 3 albums of win
P!NK - all albums
Jewel- all albums - which I may delete because they're starting to annoy me
Green Day: American Idiot and Warning
Bowling for Soup: All Albums
Better than Ezra: all Albums
Bon Jovi: greatest Hits
Johnny Cash: Live at Folsom Prison, and Greatest Hits
Jack Johnson: On & On and Brushfire Fairytales
Misc American Idol downloads (Don't Judge)
Simple Plan: no pants
Fall Out Boy: 2 albums
Jimmy Eat World: Chase this light and futures (I need bleed american on there)
Hairspray Soundtrack
311 Greatest Hits
Misc new songs
Dropkick Murphys: multiple albums
Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
Save Ferris x2
Lisa Loeb: Firecracker
Streetlight Manifesto: Somewhere in the between
All American Rejects x2
Avenue Q
Poison Greatest Hits
Plain White Ts
Lady Gaga, Fame & Fame Monster

So yeah, I know I need to load this sucker up. And I know I have more albums somewhere that I can add on....But I need some suggestions.

Yay customers

Customer is shopping for a tv, wants a great deal, etc….

Other person comes over and says “what’s the best value on a tv?” I start to explain plasmas….

Guy walks away to check something on his phone, girl says “look, this is a sugar daddy situation, I need you girls on board to help me get what I want.”

No problem.